THE WALL STREET JOURNAL
In April I was approached by SHARE, the support group I attend in the city, wondering if I would be willing to be interviewed by The Wall Street Journal. The journalist was doing a story on why a woman would chose to get a double mastectomy when only one breast is effected with cancer. I agreed to be interviewed and Lucette Lagnado called me the same day. We started a delightful relationship; we met for coffee, talked at length on the phone, and she even came over to the house with her camera crew to do a video interview. I chose to be videotaped without a wig because I wanted to show people what cancer looks like. This was brave for me because I was very conscious of my looks, but I was hoping to bear the message to other women with cancer not to be ashamed. One interview led to many more, and the camera crew followed me to several appointments: breast surgeon, plastic surgeon, radiation oncologist, surgery, meditation class, holistic healer, mastectomy bra fitting, and a final interview at home. I didn't hold anything back - I expressed myself honestly in an effort to get the word out about what it feels like to go through this traumatic period, and the tumultuous decision making process. I still remember the question Rob, the videographer asked me during my last interview: "What was the hardest part of all of this for you?" And I teared up, saying, "losing my boyfriend." I may feel differently in the future about this; I'm surprised I didn't say "losing my hair." My hair can grow back; a relationship that's broken cannot come back. I hope to touch other women with this feature from the Wall Street Journal, and that it can help them not feel alien, as I often did; a silver lining.