BEAUTY THROUGH THE BEAST Chiara D'Agostino

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Chiara. You light up any room with your presence. And our shoot in NYC was no exception...
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So much love for you @beautythroughthebeast .
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#underneathwearewomen .
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#doublemastectomy #breastcancer #metastaticbreastcancer #triplenegativebreastcancer #body #bodypositive #bopo #beauty #naked #sabcs2018 #lovetheskinyourein #bodypositivemovement #effyourbeautystandards #beautythroughthebeast

While at #SABCS I get a nasty message from a woman representing @metavivor. We are at the same conference. I wonder if she will say this to my face in public? It’s the perfect t setting for a woman with stage 4 breast cancer to be attacked.
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#sickpeople #evilpeople #hurtpeople #metavivor #meangirlsclub

Cuz when I look for support I still go to the first organization I ever called on this #breastcancer journey @sharecancersupport
I started by calling their help line and eventually crossed the #hudsonriver to attend support group meetings. (This is where I met my first best friend with cancer, Sherri, who is hugging us from heaven.) Now I attend their metastatic support group and volunteer. .
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#sabcs2018 #sabcs #breastcancer #support #nonprofit #volunteer #advocate #friends #peoplesupportingpeople #love

I’m tired of being knocked down.
Been getting back up since I was a kid.
That basement, where I was beaten.
The beltings.
Horror.

I keep being beaten by a force larger than me, a force I can’t control-
like that little girl who couldn’t escape her father.

This hand is bigger than me. It’s tough and mean and angry and unforgiving.
It doesn’t matter if I scream out “I love you daddy! I love you daddy!” Nothing stopped him.
Nothing is stopping it.
I’m tired of falling down to the ground.
Whipped across the face.
Down I fall.

Resilience. Oprah said it. I agree.
That little girl just kept getting up.
47 years later.
I can’t even say the words, don’t want to include the monster in my speech anymore.
But....
Cancer.
Metastatic breast cancer.
In my brain.
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#feelings #metastaticbreastcancer #tears #trauma #ptsd #cptsd #breastcancer #resilience #sabcs #triplenegativebreastcancer #dyingforacure #gammaknife #braintumor #beautythroughthebeast

#livingonborrowedtime #metastaticbreastcancer @su2c #tnbc #justagirlwhodecidedtogoforit @aliceandolivia #chemotherapy #whatismetastaticbreastcancer @beautythroughthebeast

My body.
Mine.
Don’t force yourself on me.
Or in me.
Be gentle with me.
Caress me. My hair. My skin. My face.....
Caress my feelings with a feather.
Give me a safe place to land.

Curves like those in the dessert....
Bare.
Naked.
Vulnerable. Strong. Resilient.
Tired.

Mine.

I am still here.
I am woman.
I am whole.
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📸@greyjohnson_photography_llc
#metastaticbreastcancer #doublemastectomy #iamwhole #words #bare #iamstillhere #breastcancer #lovetheskinyourein #naked #woman #tnbc #nude #body #femaleform #bopo #selfacceptance #selfcompassion #bodypositivity #beauty #beautythroughthebeast

Brain tumor.
I’m in San Antonio for the San Antonio Breast Cancer Symposium. Wednesday my neurologist diagnosed another brain tumor, .5mm in size.
I’m in San Antonio alone. I’m still processing the news. I notice the brain tumor comes up in every conversation I’m having with strangers - waiter, person next to me on the airplane, basketball players in the elevator, hotel front desk person, woman I shared a table with at dinner....”I have a tumor in my brain” is about the second or third thing that comes out of my mouth.
Weird.
I notice this offense to social norms. Everyone has been kind and caring, especially in Texas! But how the heck would I feel if I had small talk with someone who dropped this bomb of reality on me? I’m an intense feeler. I’m sorry to drop these bombs. This is my process.
At first I thought, “oh, it’s just another zapping of a thing.” Then it set in. Tumor. Cancer. Brain.
Tumor in my brain.
TUMOR in my brain.
Tumor in my BRAIN.
Tumor in MY brain.
WHAT THE FUCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKK?????!!!! I’m living on borrowed time since 10/25/2014. Thank you to the researchers, doctors and nurses for keeping me alive.
#metastaticbreastcancer #livingonborrowedtime #bcsm #triplenegativebreastcancer #tnbc #grief #gammaknife #radiationtherapy #sabcs2018 #braintumor #tumor #tired #iamstillhere #beautythroughthebeast

I recently partnered with an app called Breast Cancer Healthline. This free app connects women through 1:1 matches based on diagnosis, type, and stage. It also fosters group discussions around relevant topics that we face day-to-day. My favorite part about the app is connecting with others in the same situation. So I don’t feel so alone.
TONIGHT I will be hosting a LIVE chat in the app, Thursday November 29th at 6pm PST. I will be talking about all things positivity in the breast reconstruction channel. Please join us by downloading the free app—link in bio.
@healthline #bodypositivity #breastcancer #mastectomy #doublemastectomy #lovetheskinyourein #bodyconfidence #womenhelpingwomen #letstalkaboutit
https://go.onelink.me/faaH/7327c098

Cancer is back in my brain- 5mm..Gamma knife surgery after the San Antonio Breast Cancer Symposium. #triplenegativebreastcancer #metastaticbreastcancer #sabcs2018 #gammaknife #radiationtherapy #herewegoagain

#Repost @marnie_rustemeyer
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♡ SURVIVOR SEARCH ♡

If you or anyone you know would like to have areola and nipple tattoos, I am looking for a survivor to share her story for a filmed segment to help educate and raise awareness of this important service to breast cancer survivors.

There is no cost for the tattooing, however, you must be located in or willing to travel to NYC. DM or email me at marnie@mediinkllc.com for more info! .
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